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Gua lagi sebel sama kamu…
Kamu lebih banyak tidur di kala menemani gua….seakan gua ngak fun, ngak cool and gua boring…
Kamu lebih memilih teman teman mu itu daripada gua
Tetapi kamu selalu membututi gua seakan gua punya ekor…dan kamu ngak punya.
Sebenernya capek loh jadi gua…. tapi… gua ngak mau capek dengan kamu.. itu kalau bisa… yach kata pak gubenur sesuai dengan kemampuan kita.

Kalau ada gua belom tentu ada kamu.
Kalau ada kamu belom tentu ada gua.

Dibilang kita selaras itu kadang-kadang, dibilang kita serasi kok kayak nya boleh juga.

kamu adalah kamu dan gua adalah gua.
kesenangan mu belom tentu kesenangan gua
music mu belom tentu music gua
mimpi mu belom tentu mimpi gua.

kamu, kamu dan kamu…
apakah kamu itu gua?

Mending di jawab sendiri…. sehingga kamu mengerti yang gua rasain dan semoga kamu belajar tentang gua.

capek… capek…capek.. ini lah yang kurasakan di saat aku mengejar hidupku sehari-hari, mencoba mengerti dan memahami diriku dan dirimu. Apakah… harusakah.. ini perlu? Hanyalah Tuhan yang tau.
Aku lah aku, dan kamu lah kamu. Biar berbeda tetapi tetap satu… benar benar suatu yang hampir mustahil untuk di jalani, tidak mudah. Aku nya aku dan kamu nya kamu, terus dan terus begitu. capek.. capek.. capek..

keindahan di dalam perbedaan, keindahan di dalam keunikan, dan akhir nya… keindahan di dalam kesendirian diri.

Tuhan ku, Tuhan ku… hanya engkau yang dapat mengerti apa itu perbedaan… sanggupkan aku untuk hanya mengenalnya dahulu tanpa harus mengerti. The basic creation of Your Image…. mankind.

Aku tau kok kamu lagi pusink…
Aku ngerti kok kamu lagi bosen…
Aku juga ngerti kok kamu punya keinginan lain….
yang aku ngak ngerti itu siapa yang bakal gantian ngertiin aku?

Kadang kamu jauh di sana…. dan aku kangen, kadang kamu deket di sini .. tetapi jauh di hati.

Kata orang harus pandai baca body language orang lain… kamu baca punya ku ngak sih?
Kata orang juga harus ngertiin orang lain… kamu ngertiin aku juga ngak ya?
Kata orang juga di temenin itu enak… kamu nemenin aku ngak?

Apa iya kalo hidup punya tombol pembalik waktu itu bisa lebih enak ya?… jadi kepengen nyobain….
Apa iya kalo punya orang untuk di sayangin itu enak ya? …. belom tentu juga kayanya… mending sayang sama anjing yang udah jelas bakal setia…
Apa iya kamu sayang sama aku?…. tanya saja sama orang yang besangkutan deh….

Bagiku menangis itu curahan hati….mungkin bagimu itu kekalahan
Bagiku perasaan adalah nomor satu… mungkin bagimu entah di taruh di mana
Bagiku mencintaimu adalah kebutuhan…. mungkin bagimu adalah balasan karena aku sudah mencintaimu
Bagiku cinta itu indah…. bagimu lebih indah duniamu

Biarkanlah semuanya itu jadi indah karena aku ngak tau mau ngomong apa….@$$%^%&^&*()_^&?

TamaT

Thanks GOD to be so gooood to created Eve. HE knows he cant do anything without her. Quite true isn’t it? Some people even said men are from mars and women are from Venus… awaaayy different. Is that true? yeah its quite true.
Our body and mind sometimes drive us too far and ended up with much confusion and problems… and further more we born without choices….. man personality or woman personality God has made us and its always beautiful

Wise man said just live your life like running calm water and all will be much easier and smoother. Human make themselves into troubles. What wise man said its true… not being expecting … just giving, not being angry .. just calming, not being judging … but excepting.

about my title, you will answer with “depend on” like example depend on what kind of colleague you have or what kind of office you work with or depend on nature of jobs.

well, some people said in the office we are not necessary having “friend” relationship with our colleagues but for me as human being who believe in God i also have a wonderful will to make friend with anyone.
In the modern and ego center era like now that suggestion may be look like a solution for us…. but again we will end up with problems. When you dun care about your colleague and work with your own way…act as long as i am happy who care about any other people kind of attitude…… and many more trust me the ball will be back to you someday. And you better realise that you are not alone my “friend” no matter big is your ego…remember the ball will sometimes hit you. So….. the moral of this story is …. you still need a friend!!! and you better make friends.

We all know about this phrase don’t we?
Well this is very true and so many times we did judge books from it covers, what happen to me recently really teach me a lot about this phrase means, when “friends” that i thought really friends turn me down and made me disappointed. They said they need some help but end up is not only help they need but demands and command i got. And my pure intention of helping became a disaster for myself. From the appearance they look fine, dress well, act well, calm, pretty and handsome and look good in manners.
Again …. how to judge this kind of situation, you tell me? am i misunderstood what HELP word meaning? or may be they did abuse me for their satisfaction. Or….. may be what people think when they need help is only their self. In another hand i try to think that may be my standart of helping is not their standart ? but if they think so and still want people to help, aren’t they should not asking for it, because every person has their own level of helping and when you asking for help you are asking somebody for favor.
Agree with me everyone?

Yesterday afternoon …. rainy day, after work i took bus no 28 to Toa Payoh, reached there i rush buy some breads, Q up to cashier and i ready to ran to the train station. While in rush walking fast suddenly in front of me little girl age 2-2.5 years old ran after her sister which ran faster in front of her pushing their trolley….suddenly this little girl cried and fell herself in front of me uuuhhhhhhh….luckily i managed to stop my step and avoid her (fiuhhh its really close..) and i still in rush toward the mrt lift. A while i was waiting in front of the lift bay and then older brother of fallen little girl (age 5-6, which is originally behind me when i was walking) came to me and and said “YOU’VE MADE MY SISTER FALL AND YOU NEVER SAID SORRY ??” i was like shock!!blur!! to hear that and i replied him “I didnt touch her” and he talked to me again….”YOU THINK I BLIND, CANNOT SEE…?” i was even more and more getting worse….shock like hell…and i replied him again “i didnt touch her” and the lift gate was open and i just went inside with little bit angry and told myself its just kids, they are small, dont know anything…… when the lift door almost close i can see the older brother and the older sister stand in front off it and said FUCK YOU to me…… I was terribly angry at that time….but i keep myself down and just moving to the train and go home.

After a while….i was thinking….how come such a little boy and girl can do that to adult person without any fear at all…..and my mind keep thinking and thinking….my goodness now i start link and kind of belief that may be this is the seed of those suicide bombers or terrorist or criminals.

What a day…. anyway i little bit regret about it why i never come to their mother who just stand at the fallen little girl and explain everything and let her know that the kids did too far already. Wish her good luck.

Don’t give up
It’s just the weight of the world
When you’re heart’s heavy
I, I will lift it for you
Don’t give up
Cuz you want to be heard
If silence keeps you
I, I will break it for you
Everybody wants to be understood
Well I can hear you
Everybody wants to be loved
Don’t give up
Because you are loved
Don’t give up
It’s just the hurt that you hide
When you’re lost inside
I, I’ll be there to find you
Don’t give up
Because you want to burn bright
If darkness blinds you
I, I will shine to guide you
Everybody wants to be understood
Well I can hear you
Everybody wants to be loved
Don’t give up
Because you are loved
You are loved
Aaaah
Don’t give up
It’s just the weight of the world
Don’t give up
Everyone needs to be heard
You are loved

No one ever saw me like you do
All the things that I could add up to
I never knew just what a smile was worth
But your eyes say everything without a single word

Coz there’s something in the way you look at me
It’s as if my heart knows you’re the missing piece
You make me believe that there’s notheing in this world I can’t be
I’d never know what you see
But there’s something in the way you look at me

If I could freeze the moment in my mind
Be the second that you touch your lips to mine
I’d like to stop the clock make time stand still
Coz baby this is just the way I always wanna feel

Coz there’s something in the way you look at me
It’s as if my heart knows you’re the missing piece
You make me believe that there’s notheing in this world I can’t be
I’d never know what you see
But there’s something in the way you look at me

I don’t know how or why
I feel different in your eyes
All I know is that it happens everytime

Coz there’s something in the way you look at me
It’s as if my heart knows you’re the missing piece
You make me believe that there’s nothing in this world I can’t be
I’d never know what you see
But there’s something in the way you look at me

The way you look at me

Human being is the most selfish creature in this world …belief it or not. Being God’s image is most honored for us and chosen by Him is an ultimate Love that we must share around. Talking bout sharing…Have you share? have you care? and have you help others?

Many of us in many time doesn’t care about what happen outside and many times we just forget who we are and what we are… our selfishness is like prison for us to do so. Even though we live in the world full of technology, computer…. but a lot of man kind still live in the hard time and Without technology not even an electricity. Those people who life at abandon area, poor and lack education need us to share with them….may be for us $1 is nothing but for them…..is really something, $1 can be life for them. Help yourself to share with them…..those children who are walking on barefoot to school and only have a scoop of rice and 1 simple vegetable for lunch and no clean uniform to wear like what we have at school.

Please think again when you waste food just because you dun like it or may be not taste well. Or may be just easily spend your money for unnecessary shopping.
Think of them and think how fortuned you are.

You can support them and be a better person by keep donating generously through social organization that you trust.